Thursday, October 27, 2011

My Confession As a SAHM: Testimony Thursday

  My Confession as a Stay at Home Mom:
A lot lately, I have been wresting with being the woman God wants me to be at home. I get lazy I get overwhelmed. I get crazy staying within the confines of "Home". God change the way I view life as a Stay At Home Mom. I know there are ups and there are downs. Today the sun is shining, and the morning is fresh and new. Forgive me for being the foolish lazy woman who just gets bored. I am so much to do and when I get things accomplished in the Strength of the Lord, I find rest and peace and ...Joy...even Joy in being a Stay at Home Mom and Wife.  But staying mindful of doing things for God is hard sometimes. 

Yesterday I got frustrated because the house was a total disaster!  But what helped was waking up early (by my daughter whose cloth diaper drenched the whole crib!). Poor Sophie!  We did dishes in the 4AM.  Took out the trash by 4:30AM and started trying to put her to bed with a warm bottle.  NOPE.  God give me the strength to get through this day!

Having Guests when I feel like we have Nothing to Give:
Yesterday was the day the day that Dear Husband invited friends over.  I was a bit uneasy as to what to make for dinner.  We hadn't gone grocery shopping in a long time, and did not have any meat!  I've been fixing up Pasta Dishes, Ramen, Egg Sandwiches....and other miscellaneous things just to get us through till next week friday.  I grew worried throughout the day.  Then I grew frustrated because I couldn't do a good meal because in my head I kept thinking we didn't have anything! Then I grew Angry and resented my husband inviting these two friends over.

"God Forgive me"
I vaguely remember asking God for help.  I prayed a weak prayer I know.  Yet He answered.  He gave me an idea through my complaining.  THROUGH MY COMPLAINT He answered me!  I was quickly humbled and now even still humbled and asking Him forgiveness for my attitude.  I remember the Israelites complaining and God still gave them what their flesh desired.  God forgive me if I forget all your blessings!  He is Holy and Great.   Well, I was griping and complaining about how all we had was flour and eggs and no chocolate chips to make cookies with.  We had wilted spinach and lots of tomatoes--no bread or meat for sandwiches.  We had Feta and Pesto but no Pasta.

We can do QUICHE and a Homemade Pizza....and Banana Bread for dessert. 

For the Actual dinner I made a huge one, but made these little guys out of what I did not use the night before!
The Banana Bread...what a wonder bread!

Thank you Lord for the Idea!  While I was fixing up everything for the mind was focusing on how incredibly great this meal will be.  Out of days eating pasta and ramen and other things...God provided yet another night of meals to feed 5 people!  We have not really gone to the grocery store in a while, and a couple of things that bought to last us till next week went bad 2 days after we had purchased the items.  I've been using whatever we have in our fridge...and God has helped me create dishes that are different, healthy, and tasty out of it all. 

What I Have Learned through it all:
I've been in a funk about being at home. I feel that my position as a Woman in the Home, Wife and Mother is being attacked by the Enemy.  My thought life has lately been negative about where I am and what I do everyday.   I can see it in my disposition and in the way I act towards my home that I have not had my mind renewed by God's Word.

God used these 2 guests to get me out of this funk.  I am reminded of what a Woman whose trust is in the Lord can accomplish.  I am also reminded that God does care for my daily tasks....He does see me as His Child and favors me.  He hears and answers my prayers.  He is mindful of me.  I am thankful for being able to Stay at home with our daughter.  

I believe this is a lesson that I will always "keep" learning time and time again. Sorry if I keep repeating myself in posting about my frustrations! It's just where I am at right now as a Mom and Wife. 

[The Way of Wisdom]
    Wisdom has built her house;
        she has hewn her seven pillars.
    She has slaughtered her beasts; she has mixed her wine;
        she has also set her table.
    She has sent out her young women to call
        from the highest places in the town,
    “Whoever is simple, let him turn in here!”
        To him who lacks sense she says,
    “Come, eat of my bread
        and drink of the wine I have mixed.
    Leave your simple ways, and live,
        and walk in the way of insight.”
    Whoever corrects a scoffer gets himself abuse,
        and he who reproves a wicked man incurs injury.
    Do not reprove a scoffer, or he will hate you;
        reprove a wise man, and he will love you.
    Give instruction to a wise man, and he will be still wiser;
        teach a righteous man, and he will increase in learning.
    The fear of the LORD is the beginning of wisdom,
        and the knowledge of the Holy One is insight.
    For by me your days will be multiplied,
        and years will be added to your life.
    If you are wise, you are wise for yourself;
        if you scoff, you alone will bear it.

[The Way of Folly]
    The woman Folly is loud;
        she is seductive and knows nothing.
    She sits at the door of her house;
        she takes a seat on the highest places of the town,
    calling to those who pass by,
        who are going straight on their way,
    “Whoever is simple, let him turn in here!”
        And to him who lacks sense she says,
    “Stolen water is sweet,
        and bread eaten in secret is pleasant.”
    But he does not know that the dead are there,
        that her guests are in the depths of Sheol.
(Proverbs 9 ESV)