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I am so much encouraged by your comments given in a previous post when I was down and out as a mom.
I did not feel very much like I could get up and out and about again, but I am getting going again! It is not just for me, but for everyone. The day is new for every person. I know there are days that I feel like I messed up too much or have fallen too far behind, BUT we all deserve a new fresh start at life.
Because of the LORD’s great love we are not consumed, for his compassions never fail. They are new every morning; great is your faithfulness.
Lamentations 3:22-23
Yesterday I received a phone call from a friend--and I let it ring and ring. Honestly I do not like letting people in my life and let people that I know personally know that I am struggling as a young mom. I do not like letting friends and family know that I have troubles. Yet, I publish it on the web. Alas, I answered her call.
We talked about
1.) Letting in the sunshine!2.) Taking a walk with Baby!
3.) Getting together and getting some lunch sometime this week
4.) If I ever needed someone to talk to, she wants me to call her.
5.) Listen and Read the Word of God
Which some of these were similiar to what some of you suggested! :)
My thanks to--Moon Star Mommy and Rachel Joy for being there to encourage me as a young mom!
Taking a few minutes to set your mind on things helps flush out the depression by the way! Just got to keep our minds thinking right! Life gets hard and difficult...I hope that this new day will be brighter for you.
*Sunrise Image: Hordur Vilhjalmsson / FreeDigitalPhotos.net
I just read through your post this refers to. I am in the same boat. I would rather sleep the days away and hope to wake to everything being perfect and happy. I have been a SAHM since 2008 and I feel like just that... a MOM I don't feel like Brooke Anna any longer. I don't take care of myself what-so-ever... and it shows. Sadly, it shows. I put makeup on like a mask to hide what I dislike about myself and don't really attempt to dress up. Mostly to cover me up. I don't feel like my fiancée "gets it" since he simply says... Let them go outside for a while... well the problem with that is that I rarely feel like getting out. I feel like my days are wasted away blogging, and reading blogs. I KNOW what I need/must do... but just don't have the energy or drive to do any of it. So, closing the blinds and keeping the world out is easier.
ReplyDeleteWhere you mentioned that you both argued... that is where I feel I am at this point. The tension is so deep and the "unrest" is there for me as well. I feel like I must allow for a facade to dictate me. I feel so alone since the only family I have is more than 300 miles away. My mom lives here... but is gone every other month. I attend college through an online partnership and will begin on-campus classes in the fall. That stresses me since I haven't had a friend visit me in more than 7 months. My friends don't have children and I have two. I wouldn't change it for anything but sometimes I feel as if being a mother is what everyone looks at me as. Not Brooke Anna. I feel as if I have lost my identity. Sorry to keep rambling (I can continue on and on) but I just wanted you to know you aren't alone. There are so many things you wrote about that I can agree with.