Worship

Beauty in the Growing Pains

Some days, I just want to wrap myself round about with the music of worship and the truth of God's word. Closing my eyes, just absorbing the sounds and opening my mouth to bring out praises to Him. Every part of my self just exuding "God you love me...Thank..you..so..much!" My eyes close to the world blocking them out. My mind just saying no to how weird a moment this may seem to others, but oh so lovely to me giving thanks to the King.

Other times it's just being awed by the mere reading of His Word and truth that I just can't contain it--kinda feeling? Have you ever felt that?? Just like you've read something that makes you feel so uncontrollably happy and joyous?? or so powerful that your fingers tremble. oryou are overwhelmed by emotions of awe because of God that sometimes you sob because of how tremendous He is to you...

Sometimes it might just be a quietness. so tender. the quiet peace and joy that He sees you and knows you. His thoughts for you are amazing, unnumber-able.

I get taken back at different days where when I delve into his word and meet with Him or see something that exhibits His Love and Hand on something--I just want to thank Him and live in this worship moment and not to forget that we can always live worship--not just in worship music, but continually?


I wrote this two years ago...some times I feel so different from who I was.  I feel more troubled within and more tainted by this world and my own sins and faults.  God, change me to be that person whom you love again!  Forgive me for my shortcomings, and my temper tantrums.  Forgive me for losing sight of simply being your child...a child of the King of Love.  Mold me again, God...Yahweh.

Be still and know that I am God...

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My Dilemma:How do I Interact with my child?

The pressure of learning ABCs and 123s got me trying to cram it down her 10 month old brain.  We bought building blocks for her to play with.  Here I was as a first time mom sitting down on the floor trying to show her the alphabet and the numbers on the blocks.  I was trying to “play” with her and show her these things!  My heart was thinking:

I do not want her to be the only one who does not know the alphabet or know her numbers!  So we best start early!

After ten minutes of failing, I succumbed to having her throw around the blocks.  I even stacked up the blocks to show her how to “build”.  My focus was on trying to have her “Build” and was not even catching on to the fact that she was experiencing a different level of Playing and Learning that I did not even notice or understand.  

By far the only time I really had her attention was when I was reading a certain book that contained things to touch, and for me—animals to breath life into.  What I mean is she was able to touch and feel different textures and I was able to “Moo” and “Quack” and “Pock Pock Pock—Cock a Doodle Doo”.  She gravitated to this book and we had hours of fun.  To her this was her play and learning time.  She interacted and all was great. But one can sit down and read a book for so long before both of you gets tired of quacking and mooing. Little did I know that "touching" and "sounds" were a gateway to her learning!

• My dilemma was How do I interact with my child? 

  She gets bored with toys and throws them around and does not exactly play with them.  I simply did not know what she was capable of doing.  Or how to go about "playing" with her.  We'd do a couple of things here and there, but in reality I was at a loss.  I had some experience babysitting, but as far as something on a daily basis?  I was at a loss!

• Another question I had was "What can I expect from my little one? "

  Of course I play with her, but sometimes even it’s like I am reaching to the edges of my brain to figure out “HOW” to incorporate learning into all the playing that is age appropiate?  Playing with my daughter on a daily basis gets difficult for me.  As a first time mom I run out of fresh ideas easily.  I needed inspiration! 

Thankful to be alive.

I almost died today.  Alright a more serious post.

  We were heading out to one of the more rural of places where we live to attend a wedding. And there was a cross section in the road where there was an on ramp on the right side leading to the same road we were on.  The on ramp has a yield sign, so we had the right of way.  Well, as we were turning into the road, a big truck was speeding up onto the on ramp.  I saw them come right up to my side of the car.  My husband saw it and tried to make sure to avoid them as they were coming full speed right into us.  Fortunately they stopped before hitting us, and we got by them.  My husband was mad and saying that they did not see us or the yield sign.  I was trying to think about what just happened.  The full impact that "they could have hit us and I would seriously have died" did not really hit me yet.  On my mind was "where is this wedding we are so late". 

We pulled into the nearest gas station and my husband got out.  A truck came rolling fast towards us.  I looked and an older woman came out hysterically telling me "You could have died, young lady!  If our truck hit the side of your car you would have died!"  I remember being confused as this older woman almost ran at me.  I did not recognize them as the truck that nearly hit us.  I was in a bit of a shell shock.  I am not sure what happened as I must have looked puzzled trying to figure out who they were.  At first I felt like they were blaming us...for what would have happened.  But the words "You could have died!"  fell hard on me.  She quickly ran back into the truck before I could say anything or even register who they were.

"I could have died."  I thought.  My daughter was now awake from all the commotion, and I looked at her and wondered how often I did not take the time to cuddle her in my arms and read books to her.  If I had died today, she would be motherless.  My husband a single father.  In an instant my life would be no more.  Suddenly the wedding did not seem so important.  Our lives would have changed in an instant if that truck and our car did impact.  Our car is in no condition to take any impacts...let alone a full blown 40mph impact from a truck that looked like it was about a year old! 

Today could have been the day.

 I write this post just in awe that I am alive right now.  God gave me another chance to live.  I hope that I can live up to what He has planned out for my life.  I pray that if ever I do leave this world before reaching a ripe old age that I leave behind a family that is firm in the faith...in the Word of God.  I pray that I can live a life that is unashamed of the Gospel that is within me.  I want to be a ready bride, you guys.  I want to have prepared my family to be able to take on life in this world--and to have prepared myself and others for life in Heaven with God.

Sorry I don't have any Bible verses up right now....to share with this post but yup that shows where I'm at right now in my faith!  I am hoping to be a bit better equipped though....and renew my mind in the Word here in a little bit. 

But Goodnight and hope to get to know you all through my blogging.